I finished Anne Fadiman’s Rereadings the other day. For those of you who have read Fadiman’s Ex Libris, this book is not written by her, it is edited by her. She does have a wonderful opening essay though. Other than that, it is seventeen writers talking about books they have re-read. The essays originally appeared in “slightly different” form in The American Scholar of which Fadiman is an editor.
I’ve mentioned the book a couple of times because it is so fun. And like any book where readers talk about the experience of reading, it makes me excited and jabbery. Thank goodness writing about something keeps me from being too jabbery; saves us both from embarrassment. There were some essays I liked better than others–David Samuels, Patricia Hampl, and Sven Birkerts (coincidentally the first three essays)–but there wasn’t one essay that I didn’t like at all. That’s a rarity, at least for me, as it seems that there is always one essay I find terrible.
One odd thing about the book, I felt as though I had read it before. Seriously. You know how if you are reading a book you have read before but it’s been a really long time and you don’t remember much about it there are still words and phrases, moments that resonate, where you know you’ve read the book before? For me it’s a sort of mental vibration like from a tuning fork and then a fluttery feeling in my stomach, but not a sick kind of flutter more like a recognition flutter.
Anyway, I kept having these moments at various times throughout the book. I had them so frequently that I was convinced that I have read this book before, that I was re-reading Rereadings. So I checked my books read database (Don’t worry, it’s nothing fancy, just the database program that comes with Apple’s AppleWorks suite. It’s a crappy database program but it’s adequate, still if anyone knows of a good and inexpensive relational database program for Macs, let me know), so I checked my database which has information on books I’ve read going back to 1995 and Rereadings is not in it. The book was published in 2005 and my paperback edition in 2006 so there is no way I could have read it before 1995. And I don’t read American Scholar so there is no way I could have read these essays there. Weird.
I will leave you with a quote from Allegra Goodman’s essay that I really liked and think is a good description of what re-reading is:
I think unfolding is what rereading is about. Like pleated fabric, the text reveals different parts of its pattern at different times. And yet every time the text unfolds, in the library, or in bed, or upon the grass, the reader adds new wrinkles. Memory and experience press themselves into each reading so that each encounter informs the next.
I just finished re-reading Ex Libris on my train ride home tonight. I remember reading her column in Civilization and did read American Scholar once in awhile. I’ll have to pick up Re-reading. It sounds interesting. I’ve recently tried re-reading some books I remember loving when I was younger and have found many of them did not live up to my memories. Ex Libris, however, was still as wonderful as I remembered.
Ex Libris was a gift to me from a friend, another English teacher. I’m probably in the minority here, but the essay is my favorite genre, but I’m extremely selective. The Best Essays series is a good one, the editor’s introduction being worth reading just for itself. I enjoy your site. I’m at
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This sounds fascinating and I have to add it to my list of books to pick up. I’m intrigued.
I have that deja vu feeling sometimes when reading books. I hate it when I can’t remember when I’ve read something before! I read Fadimans intro essay, and the book does look good! Doesn’t she have another new book out? Or am I just wishing?
I’m smiling at the coincidence — I borrowed “Ex Libris” and “Rereadings” from the library last week, because I’ve recently finished “At Large and At Small” and I wanted to re-read her earlier books.
My favourite essay in “Rereadings” have to be Vivian Gornick on Colette. I love the way she ends her essay:
“I want the reading of Colette to be the same as it once was, but it is not. Yet I am wrenched by the beauty of that which no longer feels large, and can never feel large again.”
I felt an inexplicably personal sadness when I read it. It’s not that the book has changed — just you and the world. And you can never be the same person who read this book for the first time; it’s like an exile from Eden.
And it’s all because of Colette.
I also enjoyed Barbara Sjoholm on rereading “The Snow Queen”. Something about her impression of Gerda, who walked barefooted to find her friend Kai:
“She has no pride; her tears fall on his breast and melt the splinters in his heart, Then he cries, and the splinter washes right out of his eyes. And isn’t that what we all want deep down? To drop the cynicism and defensiveness, to give up the mathematics of hatred, to melt the hardness of another’s heart, and in the process melt our own walls too?”
I think I know what she’s saying, because I think I feel that way too.
Also, Phillip Lopate’s essay makes me want to read Stendhal . Ironically, Ann Fadiman’s “At Large and At Small” makes me want to read Lopate’s “Art of Personal Essay”. D’oh.
It’s so self-perpetuating, how books talk about each other and make you want to read other books, isn’t it? I find “Ex Libris” and “Rereadings” so very re-readable. I still enjoy the essays — but I skipped ahead to the Gornick and Sjoholm essays first. One of the habit of rereading.
That’s a lovely quote. I’m going to have to look for this book as well.
What a wonderful description on recognizing a book you’ve read before. You are right – there is something there that makes me realize I’ve read a book.
This is one book I probably should read. I hardly ever re-read a book so it would be interesting to hear writers reasons for re-reading and their experiences.
I should read this book — particularly as I’m contemplating doing a lot of re-reading next year! It would be interesting to see what other people have to say about it.
This a bit off the subject, but have you seen this Stefanie? If you haven’t, methinks this is certainly cause for celebration! Congratulations!!!!
Yes, congratulations! What a nice honor. You and the Diary of Samuel Pepys, together.
Pamela, I am afraid to re-read favorite childhood books for fear of what you experienced. Charlotte’s Web still holds up, but I’m not so sure about some of the others I loved.
Hi Paisley! Welcome and thank you! What a nice gift to get from someone. Ex Libris is a fun book. I love essays too. Fiction is my greatest love, but essays aren’t far behind.
Carl, I think you would enjoy it.
Danielle, Fadiman does have a new book of essays out from earlier this year. They aren’t about books though so haven’t rushed out to get a copy.
Dark Orpheus, that is a coincidence! I liked the essay on Colette too. It made me sad too. And the Snow Queen, yes I know what you mean about the description of Gerda, it struck me as very beautiful. Funny how reading books makes you want to read more books! I’ve got the Lopate book and have read from it. The book has a great selection.
Verbivore, I hope you can find a copy.
Iliana, thank you! I don’t re-read much either but after this book I am going to make an effort to do re-read more often.
Dorothy, you will find the book inspiring since you are already planning on doing a lot of re-reading.
J.S., I have seen it, thank you! It’s quite a surprise and a thrill.
Amateur Reader, thank you!
I enjoyed Rereadings immensely. Isn’t that deja vu feeling both amazing and terrifying? When you know you couldn’t possibly have read it and yet…..
I’m sure your first author speaking engagement went well. And at the very least, you’ve gotten the first one out of the way.