I am now in week eight of ten in my final quarter of library school. I have been looking forward to this week of class because we have finally gotten to literature. But Saturday when I settled in to do the readings for this week I was greatly disappointed. I tweeted my boredom and disappointment and got some sympathy but I need more! Well, I don’t need more sympathy really. Just being a tad melodramatic there. What was disappointing about the reading? Instead of being on something interesting like, I don’t know, current issues in literary studies, I got to read a citation study.
A citation study looks at what scholars cite in their published work. In this case the study, done in 2003, compared its findings to one done 1983. It found that literature scholars still predominantly cite to monographs, though citations to journal articles increased by a few percentage points. And it goes on and on like this. Exciting, eh?
When Bookman and I were running some errands he asked how school was going and I got a little whiny. He asked what my grade in the class is so far. I’ve gotten an ‘A’ on everything so far, I told him. And then he tossed out a grenade, “What if you just decided you were done and didn’t do anymore work for the final few weeks? Would you still pass?” I looked at him in wide-eyed astonishment. “Yes, I’d get a ‘C’ but I’d still pass.”
And then he looked at me with a sort of “well?” look. “I can’t just quit!” I said. “What if you just made a half-ass effort then?” He said. “The class isn’t that hard,” I said, “and I feel like I’m only making a half-ass effort now in spite of getting good marks.” “Okay,” he said, “so what if you make a quarter-ass effort?”
I was quiet for a bit, thinking. “No,” I said finally. “I can’t do it. Even if all I need is a ‘C’ I can’t not do the work. As tempting as it is to just check out now, I have to push on and finish up the final weeks. I don’t want a transcript that says A, A, A, A, C. What does that say to potential employers?”
I am probably being sacrilegious, but I felt like Jesus in the desert being tempted by Satan. I’ve called Bookman a devil from time to time in jest, but it seems like my unconscious mind new more than I realized!
With the end of school on the horizon and speeding ever closer by the day, I’ve begun stockpiling books. Not that I haven’t been stockpiling books for, like, forever, but the pile of to-reads on the corner of my desk is growing.
I’ve got a couple of gardening books on actual garden design and two books on Emily Dickinson’s garden on request at the library one of which is ready for me to pick up. On its way in addition to this is Nick Hornby’s Shakespeare Wrote for Money. I’ve read all his other Believer collections on books and on a whim requested this one the other day. I have other book requests at the library but I am in a queue for those and there is no telling when they will arrive. Probably all at once because that’s the way these things go.
I recently brought home a couple books that I requested from the library where I work. Myth and Society in Ancient Greece because with all of the reading of ancient Greek plays I have been doing I thought it would be fun to learn a little about what it was like to actually live during that time. The other book I brought home is The Dyer’s Hand by W.H. Auden. These are essays he wrote and supposedly there is one in the book about writing criticism that seems like it might be especially interesting.
In addition to these, I have two ARCs that I am looking forward to reading, Sugar in My Bowl, a book of essays edited by Erica Jong on what women want. The perpetual question. The other ARC is Tolstoy and the Purple Chair, a sort of memoir in books that I couldn’t resist. I have an ARC on my Kindle called Monoculture: How One Story is Changing Everything. It looks at the stories we tell about ourselves as a culture and how one particular story is starting to create a sort of story monoculture and how that affects and shapes who we are.
Also on my desk is George R.R. Martin’s Game of Thrones because Bookman loves the series and there is a TV show now that he wants to watch and I’d like to watch too but feel like I should read the books first. You know how that goes.
My final assignment for class is due Wednesday, June 8th but I’m pretty sure that I will be done by Saturday, June 4th. I have already put in for some time off from work beginning June 8th and going through Monday, June 13th. I have no doubt I will have plenty to read.
A citation study?? Gag me with a spoon.
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Bad Bookman, Bad! Only two weeks left: you can do it!
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Keep going. In the current climate you are so right about potential employers but even more important is your self-esteem.
I picked up a copy of ‘The Dyer’s Hand’ years ago in a secondhand sale and you’ve reminded me that I’ve no idea what I did with it. I certainly didn’t read it. I must seek it out and look for the essay you mention.
And yes, those books you’ve reserved will undoubtedly all turn up on the same day. They are like the number 11 bus, which will mean nothing to you, but anyone who lives in Birmingham UK will immediately recognise what I’m saying. It’s a bus that runs a circular route round the city and in theory there is supposed to be one every fifteen minutes. In practice they hunt in packs and after a forty-five minute wait three will turn up together. It is one of the immutable laws of nature.
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You can do it! I have had the exact same conversation with my boyfriend when it comes to grades. I know these last few weeks seem tough, but you’ll be proud of yourself that you didn’t give up AND you will look better to those future employers.
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You are almost there! It is always harder to keep up the energy in the last few weeks, but the end is in sight!
I love The Dyer’s Hand! Haven’t read it in several years, but I used to refer to it occasionally because it was such a comfortable way to discuss literature.
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So close to the finish line! And I quite understand why you couldn’t skip the class, not after all the hard work you’ve put in so far. Although I join in with your disgust – that is NOT a literature module and you have ALL my sympathy. I think Bookman was being rather clever, though, as I’d put money on him knowing that you would rally if he offered you a get-out-quick option. I expect he knows you quite well!
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Softdrink, I know! How dull can it get?
Bikkuri, long time! Thanks for the encouragement!
Annie, you’re right, even if an employer never asks me for a copy of my transcript I will know! Glad to remind you about the Dyer’s Hand. And that is a very funny story about the number 11 bus!
Hungrybookworm, thanks for the encouragement! These laast couple of weeks will fly and I will wonder when it’s done why I was so tired!
Jenclair, thanks! I am also very glad to hear the entirety of Dyer’s Hand is good. I was only going to find the one essay but now I think I will read them all.
Litlove, I was expecting something really interesting for this week especially after a study we read last week for the performing arts module that was about Shakespeare actors and “sense-making” and how they gather information to create their characters. You are very generous to Bookman. I suspect he is as tired of me being in school as I am and even though he knew I wouldn’t just quit, he wanted to point out that it was an option or at least suggest I didn’t always have to be so contientious!
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Just curious do you have exams to finish or is this last class the end of it all?
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I also would HAVE to get the A. I understand Stefanie. Great job with school 🙂
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Ha, I had almost the exact same conversation as I was finishing up college. In my case I’m positive Litlove’s analysis was correct & David just wanted me to stop whining. 😉 The last few weeks are always hard but hang in there & soon it will be over! So much reading time for you.
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Poor thing. It does sound a bit interesting though, to see incremental citation shift over a generation. Does it parse out the details? Can you see the march towards the Twitter Generation?
I double dog dare you to let this assignment slide. Oooh, what do I want more than anything? Because somehow, I don’t think you have it in you. 🙂
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Catharina, oddly, there are no exams or a thesis to write or anything. I’m just done which is kind of weird.
Helen, I figured you would understand! Thanks!
Emily, I don’t understand why our significant others don’t like to hear us whine 😉 Thanks! I am very much looking forward to that sudden increase in reading time.
Carrie, oh yes, it parses out the details. The shift though is so incremental that it almost is a worthless comparison. The study was done in 2007 and it mentions that there were very few citations to online sources. Literature scholars apparently tend to be rather tradtional and it takes a long time for change to happen. And you’re right, I don’t have it in me to let the last bit of class slide!
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You are already halfway through one of those weeks now — even closer to the finish line! You were right not to give into temptation (although I can’t really articulate a good reason why. My guess is that most libraries wouldn’t care too much about that final grade if they bothered to look past the overall GPA). Anyway, happy reading once it’s done! You’ve got some great stuff lined up.
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Emily, you’re right, most libraries don’t care about GPA, though one job I applied for a few months ago requested an unofficial transcript so some do apparently. But really, it only matters for my personal self-esteem 🙂 The flood gates of reading are going to burst open when I’m all done and the book line-up keeps growing!
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I’m waiting for Tolstoy and the Purple Chair from the library, or even bookstores, since it’s not out yet in Canada. I visit her blog and Bookreads regularly, she’s great! Have you been to her blog? Read All Day dot org by Nina Sankovitch. She read one book every day and wrote a review on it for one whole year. Tolstoy and the PC is about that experience. I so look forward to reading it.
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I would be very tempted to blow off the last couple of weeks, but in the end, like you, I know I couldn’t do it and would want the perfect grade all the way through! You’re almost done, now, though. I think I’d be making a pile of books in anticipation of finishing! Wow, I really used a lot of commas in my comment, didn’t I!
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Arti, I didn’t know about her blog. Thanks for the tip! And glad to you are looking forward to the book. It makes me look forward to it even more.
Danielle, commas are great! I tend to be a liberal comma user myself except when writing something official. I had a composition teacher once who encouraged the less is more approach to commas and now I sometimes go overboard in the other direction. The siren song of my book pile is getting louder daily. Soon I will have to have my husband tie me to the mast, or maybe a chair since we don’t live on a ship.
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